Like Clockwork.

It's the funniest thing how God works in our family.  It is. 

So, on the way back from Tacoma, Adam and I took advantage of only having one kid in the backseat....and got a few heart-to-hearts with minor interruption.  I felt it in his tone, and in mine.  Something wasn't working.  We went over the topics.  His workload.  Mine.  The kids.  Joel.  His school.  Our stress.  Karate.  The housing situation.  This is what we do....go over things.  See what we can eliminate.  And, there was nothing.  Everything causing us stress had to stay, at least for now.  So we prayed for peace.  Just peace.  Because, to be honest, things haven't been to our liking for awhile.  And that's just part of life.  Things are tough when kids are little, and sleep is hard to find (SOOO HARD. *yawn*)

A couple of days later, Adam comes home from being on the road with his boss.  Who offered him an extra $1,500.00/month....so that I could stay home and take care of the kids.  He didn't just offer him money.  He sacrificed his paycheck so that Adam and I could survive without me working.  How many bosses do you know that are willing to give up their monthly paycheck? 

I am at a loss for words.  The kids need me home so badly that it punches me in the gut when I leave for work.  Their needs aren't being met with me gone.  Adam's on the phone all day working, or emailing.  Joel's getting fed, but not to the volume that he could be consuming.  And there's this looming cloud that just disappeared......Joel can now continue weaning his feeding tube during this Spring/Summer's surgeries. 

I'm seriously going to miss working 3-4 days a week.  I loved my job.  And I can't put into words how hard it was to tell my boss that the most unpopular position at the store was available....once again.  I felt like I was letting her down, but she was understanding, and loving,....just as she always is.  I'll still be working events from time to time, but my main priority is at home.  Like it should be.